>>7301892I know that feel.
I wanted to confess to her but before I could do so, on the very same day, she told me that she fell in love with someone else. She didn't know about my feelings beforehan, so I can't even blame her.
Regardless, I confessed to her a day later. This way, I thought, I could come to terms to it. Close the chapter.
But every time I see her smile at me now I think about what could have been. I've been condemning myself for failing, for being too slow, for being not good enough and not being able to get over it. I'm sick and tired of falling over and over again for her, but I can't remove her from my life.
I beat myself up, imagining how she lays in his arms and not mine. Sometimes I get so mad that I want to take it out on him, but I don't. In the end I would only end up hurting her, too.
I worked on myself, changed my attitude and appearance. I tried to distract myself from what happened, tried to meet someone else. But I still can't get her out of my head.
/rant
