>>7353343Believe me, anon, I was in your shoes when I was 21 2 years ago (going on 3 tomorrow). You'll look back on your past self and wonder how the fuck you weren't able to see how easy everything related to women is. I'm honestly at a point I don't think I even want a GF right now due to the sex I can get. Give it time.
As for myself, I'm currently stuck at an overall decent job. Or rather as decent as a college dropout can get at 23 going on 24. However, it is such an utter cluster fuck where nobody seems to know what they are doing. Fourth goddamn day I had to stay home doing "training" training because the manager is a tool and can't schedule shit in advance. it pays the bills and allows me to have spending/investing/gym money, but not by much. Don't even really have health insurance because I need every penny in case something would happen related to a car issue, family problem, or so on. Which is even made worse by a lack of foreseeable progression.
Doesn't help that this past New Year's Eve I realized I no longer care for my old high school friends save for 1. I'm experiencing loneliness and isolation I've never felt before. I hate coming onto this website but have nowhere else to socialize. Vidya doesn't feel as good any more either. Nor can I spend money for any real hobbies.
On top of all this I'm highly considering going back to college so I can actually have a decent middle class life. Will it make me happy? Fuck if I know but at the very least I can afford nicer things. I'm kinda lost at what I want to do with my life. All I know is that I need a base to go off of. Maybe one I get a degree I can finally try standup like I always wanted. Maybe i can settle down. Maybe I can feel like I've actually achieved something other than pulling myself out of a depressive state. IDK. All I know is that while I don't wish I were dead any more, I know I'm not happy where I am at in life and know I can do better
