>>7383943Well, I have many thoughts on my mind rigth now.
I've been under medication for around six months, I'll finish it this tuesday. Said treatment left me with little to no energy, prevented me from doing excersie (I've lost many muscle), dimished my concentration and has made me to be much more sad (I've never been a happy person anyway). Of course, it has also cured my condition, so I'm happy with it. Once all those effects disappear I'll much more energy and I'll to take the offensive with my life, so to speak.
On the one hand I'm loocking forward to it, It's what I have wanted for months. On the other hand I'm sort of afraid. I've always tried to not use this medication as an excuse, to push myself to work and study even if my body was completely against it. God, there was even one day in which it was almost a miracle that I made it out of bed. But, I had a reason not to do something, not to try something, I had a reason not to push myself and that was a relief. I could always tell myself that I was not weak, that it was my treatment. It's like I'm about to lose my shield on the battlefield and figth with only my sword.
I am afraid.
Wallpapers of battles tend to give me courage, I hope it works for you as well.
