>>7436582After that weekend ex texts me and basically rubbed in my face what a great time she had without me. I put on a face and say I'm doing totally great even though I felt like total shit.
A couple days later I offer to set up a day when we meet up and give back whatever we were borrowing from each other. I was planning on using this to talk to her in person because she wouldn't talk about it over text. The day comes around and she very clearly let me know that she didn't want me around more than 5 minutes. I come up with a shitty plan. I wrote a letter that I was going to stick in what I was giving back to her with an ultimatum as to why she was really leaving me. When I wrote the letter I was incredibly angry and sad, and it reflected in what I said. I brought up how much money she owed me and how I was the only one that was willing to help her with a uni related project that we both stayed up all night for. In the letter I asked if she was just staying with me because I had money (her ex was filthy rich.) I also made it very clear that I still have feelings for her and that it was completely up to her if she ever wanted to talk to me again. After a very awkward exchange, I get home and get a text that she was very hurt by what I said (understandably) and despite that she still wanted to message me back. I apologize profusely and said that we were even but she wanted space. She also gave a real reasoning as to why she wanted to break up, we were both just changing in opposite directions (which is true, I'm more in love with my ex of a year ago than to who she is today) .
At this point I do not want to get back with her. Even though I still love her a lot I can tell its not mutual. The hardest part is how fast she got over me and how little it seems she cares about me. I've deleted SC Twitter IG all so I wouldnt have to see her in my feed. I really want to get over her but I cant. She was my best friend for 2 years and I can't just get over her in a snap.
