>>7440119>>7440166>>7444120damn, I honestly didn't expect much reaction.
what happened was we had a hot tub party with some of our friends, two of which were girls that i'd never met before. she felt like i was getting a little too friendly with one of them, and she then got upset that i didn't realize she was upset (i was drunk). she figured that since we drink a lot, she saw some side of me that comes out when we drink, and there was no telling if i was gonna end up cheating on her because of it.
i know it sounds insane but i know her really well, and i know a lot of the shit she's gone through. i get her logic but i would never cheat on her.
anyways, she ended up messaging me asking for something after being silent for almost a week after that last post. i asked her if she was ready to have the conversation about staying friends and she said "oh its not much of a conversation im down lol." that was it, and she's kinda ignored my presence in group chats so its clear she's saying it to keep up appearances.
the other night she messaged me asking for me to give her back her knife and pepper spray that got left in my car, but my phone was getting repaired, so when i saw it the next day i tried explaining and apologizing, but she didn't acknowledge it, and said whenever i could get those to her i could. i dropped them in her mailbox today after work so i wouldn't see her and all she messaged me after was "ok cool."
i have my first therapy session tomorrow (semi related but its for a lot of stuff combined), but im afraid that 6 45-minute sessions aren't going to be enough to fix me.
