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I lost friends and family last year. My girlfriend who I loved so much and had so many happy memories with started suffering from severe depression and showed signs of BPD that led to her snapping, lashing out at me, and breaking up with me in a very hurtful way. My desperation in trying to keep her with me and my inability to move on made this worse and I stopped taking care of myself. Things like showering, shaving, or even brushing my teeth became harder to do. I went into a spiral of depression that led to me to drink a lot. My performance at my job suffered. I started alienating people around me. My health got so fucked that I gained 25 pounds and some of my organs were starting to fall apart.
Recently, I began to turn my life around. I haven't thought of her for a bit. I'm working out again, finding new hobbies for me to enjoy, eating healthier, reaching out to friends and family, and really cut down on my drinking. For the first time in a few months, I think I can see the daylight. I know there is a long road ahead of me and I still have some deep anxiety and trust issues from last year but I feel calm now.
