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(Phone pape because I cannot write this from my laptop)
I'm 28 and in the last 9 years I've been in two relationships.
Previous relationship lasted for 4 years. I wanted to end it after a year and a half but I was literally the only good thing in her life and she had nowhere to go so I couldn't.
Current relationship started almost like a trap and has been feeling like that ever since. It started with me being clear about wanting to be alone, then several events happening, and then me ending up living with her and having no other place to go. I actually managed to break up but she begged me to just pretend for a while because she could neither deal with it nor telling her family. That was 6months ago. I'm still here and the suffocation has turned into numbness.
Both of them weren't bad people, so it's hard to cause them pain. But they had big attachment and jealousy problems. The current one also mental problems.
I know that this situation will end one day, but at this point I'm afraid of ending not wanting to go into a relationship ever again.
