>>7815771Anon, I'm sorry for everything you've been through but you gotta realize that you're too young to give up on life. You still haven't experienced everything there is to experience, that still awaits you.
Don't give up yet, you said that art interests you, then start deeply exploring music(jazz music, classical, rock, punk, whatever etc) and films(Tarkovsky's, Ingmar Bergman's, Bresson's) or literature.
If you have noone in real life that would make you better you can have art, and since you have an interest for it you could just dig your interest deeper.
