>>6590926Me and her began to get really close, she knew what I was doing and began to earn myself a reputation in collage, I was shitting where I was eating after all. We talked all the time and had really good chemistry.
Weird thing is, I actively avoided any conversations that could end up in us getting together. At the time I didn’t want to get tied down, but now I realise it was that I didn’t want to hurt her. I didn’t know what I was like, I was an entirely new me, I didn’t know if I’d cheat or not.
After a while she found out what I’d been up to, she heard rumours most of which true and people were talking about her behind her back. She said it wouldn’t happen between us.
For the first time in about 10 months, I felt awful. She was the chink in my bullet proof armour. I somehow managed to patch it up and we got together three months later.
I’m still with her today, and I am the happiest I’ve been in my whole life. I still feel numb and don’t register emotions anymore but I’m getting better with her help. I give her that lift, and she gives me that little bit of grounding.
My whole life has changed, my friends treat me with respect and nobody fucks with me anymore if anything, they play up to me. For the first time in 14 years, I feel that I know who I am, what my purpose is and I feel happy.
TL;DR When you hit rock bottom, you’ll either fall through and give up, or bounce back and change your whole life for the better.
