>>7995487I feel like my "best" friend over the past 8 years is an "npc" now. I don't like using that acronym to describe people I love, and I may be taking things the wrong way, but he just seems different. Maybe I never noticed that he was this way, but his response to me dealing with trauma this year was dismissive at best, and it felt straight up rude. It put a lot of things into perspective. As of recent, when I try to engage in deep discussion with him, he just seems to reply in short statements. We are still able to have good conversations, but I feel like something is just different. Idk. I have became friends with some of his friends recently, and we are capable of having an actual deep dialogue. It is like they are actually able to put effort into their responses, and I can have a passionate discussion with them. I love him, but he just seems off. I hope he isn't acting like this because of something that I did, and I really hope that this is just some sort of phase. He is literally one of the coolest people that I have met, but he just seems different these past couple of years. I am turning 30 soon, and maybe I am having different expectations in what I think a healthy conversation is now, and perhaps I am failing to realize that he was always like this. Idk bros. I am scared that he doesn't value our connection the way that I do. He is literally the only friend that I have been in communication with more than 5+ years, and I hope we are friends for life. Perhaps I am just a dramatic faggot.
