>>7095130That's what happens when you let people hurt you and you never thought they could do that. I just find myself a loner for now. But OP shouldn't resort to drinking. I resorted to that after high school when I left my abusive ex of four years. I drink less now and ironically a close friend d of mine who is a lesbian had a drinking problem and she broke that bad habit. She belives I can do the same. Beautiful girl. Its not surprising I do have a thing for her but I'm a bisexual woman that's awkaward on picking up chicks, I'm trying to work things out with a guy but Idk if she's ready for love since I knew the people that abused her and she finally left them. Thanks BTW anon.