>>7621818I'm 27, have a bachelors degree, a job, and still live with my parents. I'm just as lost as ever. sometimes I think about being an hero, daily really. I keep my handgun hidden in case I get flagged as a suicide risk and the police want to take it. I don't hang out with friends hardly anymore because I work nights. in the last 3 years I've probably socialized with friends 20 times.
constantly racking up credit card debt, buying stuff for temporary distraction which usually lasts at most a month before I need something else to keep me occupied. motorcycle, project car, this that and the other fucking stuff I can't remember because it was just a temporary distraction that has passed. somehow I have a 750ish credit score, but I haven't owed less than 4000 in a few years. I think I'm at 6 or 7000 right now. I try not to look. gotta get through the early game before you can worry about the late game, nahm sayin?
I want a faster bike, but if I keep chasing that dragon I'll end up dying in a police chase because I need the adrenaline to feel anything. doing wheelies on traffic doesn't do it for me like it used to. I don't really ride for pleasure anymore, it's just to commute on when there isn't snow.
life's just an awful grind. it's super shitty, but I have to endure at least until my parents die. I'd feel bad for my brother, but he's in a stable relationship so it's not like he'd be left alone if I did that down the line