>>76501803rd world shithole life advice, but you are the only one you can trust and rely upon, and if you can't rely upon yourself, you are fucked. Start now to detach yourself from anything that doesn't align with the future you want for yourself, and work on it, it will hurt and you will probably want to an hero, but the reward from this self-imposed attitude and unfaltering Will to achieve what you want is worth the pain, the tears, the blood, everything.