>>6782368Been "together" for 4 1/2 years. She's been at college for most of that time. Too far away to visit often.
I feel we've drifted apart. Maybe it's just on my end.
I want to end it. I want someone who's here. I want to spend everyday with someone and call them my love.
But she doesn't have too many more semesters to go. What if I walk away from what I have dreamed of? She's such a sweet girl.
I've cheated. A fair amount this past summer. I need to end this.I hoped doing so would push me to end it. Or worse case she finds out and ends it herself because I'm a little bitch. But it hasn't pushed me. She doesn't know. I feel bad about it, but I know it's not as bad as I should feel.
I'm afraid to change, but I'm afraid of not changing