>>7435740I don't judge you anon. I struggle with anxiety sometimes as well. ESPECIALLY when I am anticipating something "big". Honestly the best thing I learned to do is write a list of shit I need to do, count down from 3, and just keep doing and trying for something. The moment you stay still, you give yourself the chance to obsess what your boss, strangers, etc. think of you.
Believe it or not 19 is plenty young and you are in the drivers seat for your future.
Idk if any of this helps... but as long as you are trying or learning: you will never be "failing" or wasting your life.
