>>7949081I have come to realize that the only thing that matters in life is experiencing it with other people, yet I still find myself unable to make meaningful connections with others. Recently I befriended two people for the first time in five years so I have felt less dejected, however it was while traveling. I got their details but it's obvious that it wasn't nearly as meaningful to them as it was to me. None of my friends from school carried into adult life and, being in my early 20s, I postponed university (dodged Covid at least) and got a certificate/solid-paying job. Life bounces between feeling alright and feeling nothing at all - the family I do have make me doubt whether that will ever change. Thankfully the things I experienced while solo-traveling showed me that my existence isn't totally invisible. I wonder if I should move away and go to university.
