>>7084734I feel you OP. similar thing happened to me, my ex who would always tell me she loved me didnt mean it for the last few months that i dated her. apparently she lost interest months before she broke up with me. this was about 5 months ago btw.
Anyway, Im having trouble finding anyone else who could make me happy. Ive fallen for someone again. I thought i wasnt capable of feeling that beautiful feeling again. Only thing is shes 5k miles away. I don't think i can subjugate myself to another long distance relationship. I dont like anyone ive seen/met in my city at all. They all feel like the same person here. I want to ask her out or something but shes not really the type to do LDRs. Understandable though. I cant help but to just drool over her. adorable little thing whos so sweet unlike anyone ive ever met.
Im more than willing to pack my things and move there just to be with her but i dont think she even cares or likes me back. I want to talk to her more but i dont wanna get curved or feel more anxious and depressed than i already am.
I've only ever been genuinely in love two times, i cant just fall for anyone but it seems like every time i do theyre so far away. I must be retarded or unlucky. Either way i dont wanna feel anything anymore.
messy rant but its like 7:30 am and i just woke up, also this wallpaper is the visual representation of how feel