>>7838651OC from rural Pennsylvania
I sort of love my family but also I hate my family. I wasn't shown any attention as a kid and when they did it was to abuse me. Mom told me her life was better before she had me and i'm a drag, when i was like 5. Although they stopped fucking with me when I was an adult (because i moved across the country and cut contact) they did some crazy shit to me i could never imagine doing to a child let alone my own. I try to larp as a happy family member at the holidays with them since i was about 25, because on some level i think they feel guilt and want things to be okay now and now treat me well. But i think that's mostly because i've proven that i will quickly cut them out of my life if they break my boundaries or fuck with me again.