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I have spent quite a long time over the years ruminating over my own mortality. But I can't really help it; I find myself always looking for the causation of things and a subject like this doesn't allow me to place myself in that situation. At some point I realized that I didn't care or feel anything at all when I was born, one day I just kind of showed up to the world.
Knowing that is how it will be afterwards as well eases a lot of anxiety and phobia I have towards death and isolation. I can live to know that I was here, that I can live a life at all.
I don't want a big reward at the end. I don't want to spend my life working towards and hoping that I'll finally have it all or something like that. I want to have memories, that's all. They're the only proof that we existed in this point in time in the eons of time. If I could praise my past self for something, its that I kept going so I could try again. I suppose for my future self it would be the same way.
