>>6798538You are completely correct. Without happiness there is no life to live. Going out with a bang seems like too much effort when you could just end it now.
>>6798546Not all of them. Fucked my brain with drugs and burnt out all my serotonin receptors, this led to me trying desperately to overdose. But alas I woke up in a hospital cuffed to the bed and now three years later and after several courses of SSRIs and hours of mentally exhausting therapy my brain is finally ticking again.I see purpose in my life. My point being that there are people out there who have felt suicidal to the point of doing something they were certain would kill them and yet still come out the other side a better person.
>>6793856OP, I don't know/care for you really but as someone who has been though shit like this before my only piece of advice would be that things wont get better, not for a very long time. You'll wake up everyday and feel exactly the same until you start doing something about it and even then you've only just begun the road to recovery. I'm not here for you, but if you feel you'd like to be happy again then I wish you the best of luck with it.