>>7383943 (OP)Pardon the wallpaper but it is what best sums it up.
I don't know how to explain to a ladyfriend or most normies what I've seen. They are my friends but I've a hard time connecting. Having a front row seat to a country devolving into an Islamist dictatorship, nearly dying a few times, falling in love, traveling and having met some of the most interesting people in the world. How do relate to them when your background and experiences are so alien? I just pretend I get what they mean but I don't. My path diverged when most people had the normal university life.
On top of that; I lied, I cheated, I killed and I stole. Then, I saved a few lives and helped a few others become better people. At the end of the day its an identity crisis, I'm not sure who I'm supposed to be. It makes me feel a fraud in general. Despite being this type of person, I'm consistently put and end up in leadership roles. Its so strange. On the surface, I don't speak much nor am I so wordy. Its just the projection of confidence and belief despite not really believing it. But people believe me. They'd lose respect for me if they knew who I really was. The good and the bad think I'm just like them.
There was one girl who knew me before I did all these things and I came home some great adventurer. The town thinks I'm something I'm really not. I used to be able to level with her. Closest thing to a sister I had.