>>7192625Oh anon, I know the pit you're currently trying to peer up out of, and it feels so horrible to be in. I know when you're 19 you don't want to hear older people telling you it will get better, but the thing is everything IS really big when you're 19. So many huge things are thrust on you at a time when you're so, so not ready for them.
But, if you can slog through, make do and put one foot in front of the other for a year or two, things really do start to level out. You just gotta keep waking up and taking on the day, you know? And even if you fall into bed at the end with a head full of 'oh my god why am I even doing this', you still made it to the finish line and you should congratulate yourself on that.
Also, re: 'I don't know what I want to do with my life', I have a song I think you need to hear.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MQlJ3vOp6nI