>>7600426i relate to this too. even the time frame.
my bit is that i was pretending to be transcendent and zen, but all i was doing was committing a very slow psychological suicide. but someone challenged my ideas. her perspective was immature at best, and outright stupid at worst, but she was fun for a summer.
but i'm an analytical person. i parsed the merit in the argument to find that waiting, inert, yields no change. i had accumulated this emotional baggage that led to stasis. stasis is the endgame after all. no friends, no conflict; no romance, no heartbreak; only doing the things you love, never work a day in your life.
but without sacrifice there is no growth; without failure there are no lessons. you just know what you know and the world keeps turning. time passes, culture evolves, and what you know becomes obsolete. obsolete to your surroundings and especially to your own circumstances. in this way your own knowledge base continuously shrinks as long as you continue not to add to it.
i'm not your life coach. i'm just sharing my experience. i'm still waiting for my turn to die.
