Quoted By:
Feel like I could write a novel...
8 months ago I moved across the country (3000 miles) to go to university. My girlfriend of 2 years came with me and we moved in together for the first itme. Things were going great for a while but they soon after started to deteriorate. 2 weeks ago, we came to the mutual conclusion that our lives are going different directions and its best we end the relationship before we both totally hate each other.
Additionally, i recently found out a close friend of mine passed away last year from a drug overdose. he reached out to me shortly before he died, and I cant help but feel I could have saved him.
I've also been broke as hell for the last two months, so I've been working overtime to pay my bills, but its seriously cutting into my school work.
I'm 3000 miles from home with now nobody to really talk to about any of this. I keep going through my daily life just trying to keep things pieced together, then go home and drink/smoke and cry for a couple hours before I fall asleep.
Feels like everything is collapsing all at once. I'm usually a pretty cheery guy and I feel like I do a decent job of keeping my chin up even when things aren't going great. But living with my ex girlfriend and continually suffering emotional breakdowns about my ending relationship and my dead friend and threat of being evicted and working not enough to pay my bills but too much for school to be a priority is all really getting to me. I've been either drunk or high constantly over the last two weeks and I just feel like I'm going to have some sort of psychotic break soon.
