>>7368645Not sure if you're still here, anon, but I felt the same way last November and December. I hadn't been doing well during that semester of college, but rather than facing the issue, I avoided thinking about it and kept making the same mistakes and poor choices. I'm currently on a leave from college and working full time. I feel better, but I don't know how much of that is due to the better habits I've been cultivating and how much can just be chalked up to the removal of most of my sources of anxiety and stress.
Your observation about not having been proud of what you did each day really resonated with me though. I wasted so much time during finals week, and avoided facing what was bothering me. Every night I lay in bed thinking about how badly I was continuing to fuck everything up. It's hard to break out of that though cycle.
I think a break and a change of scenery would help you cultivate proper habits and get on track, (as I suspect it has done to me), but I could easily be wrong.
Good Luck
