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the weekend before last my wife of 11 years (I'm in my 30s, old fag now) and I mutually decided to separate.
we'd grown into different people and the love was gone, but we still care about and love each other, so when we realized how we were hurting each other we decided to call it ahead of time. It hurts a lot, but I think we'll probably be friends later which is nice.
I was a sad sack for a while, and still am, but this girl that I had some crazy tension with at one of the low points of my relationship (a big libido mismatch for medical reasons... we restrained ourselves but hit the line very close a few times, but decided friendship first) hit me up out of the blue saying she was hoping to reconnect started messaging me and things quickly got hot and heavy.
I'm not ready for anything serious, but it feels like a great thing. I want to be wanted and she wants me and has for ages. She's sexy AF and a freak, and wants me to want her. She's also okay with it not being serious. She just wants to hit the unpause button on the crazy blueballing we were giving each other from those years ago and find out what happens.
She's out of town for work for a couple weeks right now, but we've been chatting. We talked about meeting up for dinner and a movie, then it quickly became about skipping the movie, and now she's suggesting that maybe we should just meet each other first at my place, see where that goes then worry about food later.
In addition to this I feel like the unhappiness that had invaded my entire life for the last few years and had me wanting nothing more than to drink the ol' void juice actually feels like it's going to get better now, someday. It's still there, but, just for once... life feels like it might be an adventure again and things feel like they're gonna be okay
