>>7621783Thanks for making a new thread OP, these are one of the few threads that draw me back to this site.
It’s summer right now and I’m entering into the sophomore year. I had a horrible freshman, none of the supposed “”freshman experience”” at all. I was pretty unhappy and just miserable. I hated the college’s emphasis on prestige, elitism and status. Often times I felt the need to go an extra miles to appear successful but ended up thinking: Who the hell am I trying to impress?
Recently, I just started painting some still life again (haven’t touched drawing in 3 years+) and I feel so much happier. I know the arts are my main goal in life and being able to indulge in this for the remaining month, before college starts again, is making me more optimistic. I don’t expect to achieve a professional standard super quickly, but getting back into the one thing that prevents me from leaving this world is truly a blessing. My standards may not be great now, and I struggle with perfectionism, but I’ve started to envy younger successful artists far less and genuinely view them as inspirations. I hope to be a positive force in the art field as I grow and help younger kids who felt like me, as I was