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Different type of story to those people are posting.
My most heartbreaking moment occurred only a year ago now. As long as I can remember, my younger cousin has had cancer. I can't remember a time he wasn't in and out of hospital. My family and others always kept positive, and we supported him always. Poor kid was so young he didn't even understand what was happening to him. Eventually he passed away (in his sleep we presume, no-one was present at the moment).
I miss him so much. My heart shattered when i heard the news. But no matter how hard I tried I couldn't bring myself to cry or weep. Not even a tear. I've always had trouble expression my emotions, but it made me feel so horrible that I couldn't shed a tear for a kid I loved so much and whom I miss so dearly.
Everyone says the same thing to you: "I'm so sorry". After a a while I felt like yelling at people who said that. I was angry. I knew their condolences were with me and my family, but my inability to show any feeling manifests into this anger I have inside me. I want to yell at everyone, but I'm supposed to say I'm ok. I'm not ok.
I'm not a religious person but I have that small hope that one day I will see him again. Life never really is the same after losing someone so close.
I know some people have lost family closer than that, but thats my personal experience.
