>>7555854last month i was forcibly drugged and sexually assaulted on my way home from seeing my ex (with whom i broke up during the trip). since then the only people i've really seen are my parents, my social worker, a doctor, and a psychiatrist.
said ex later made a really inconsiderate joke invoking multiple of the circumstances of the assault. i haven't spoken directly with him since and have no interest in ever having to talk with him again.
i live in a single room basically with my computer across from a futon i bought when i first moved here. my roommates are frat kids, who have guests over but those people are asswipes (as is expected with frat kids). my one very good friend i have not seen for a good six months, and he and i still are struggling to find a good time for him to come hang out. he's my only physical non-family non-professional human contact. i always feel distant from people and okay with that, but right now it really hurts to be so alone all the time.
i quit my job before christmas, and i haven't been able to find good work, leaving me basically a NEET. when i got assaulted i also had my money stolen, but with luck my tax return and a few other stores of cash have been generous enough to keep me afloat. i don't know what i'll do in May when I'm all out.
i flunked out of university. i lost my scholarship because my grades tanked, and now i can't afford to go. my mom is helping me pay for IT certs, but it's slow going and it's more than I can handle with my low energy and poor focus.
and yet for some dumb reason i keep fucking going, i don't even know why myself.
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