>>5585916>>5586163>>5586570>>5587013I've found that there are many reasons people don't know what to do with their lives. For me it was fear of responsibility and not being able to use the skills I had in a way that meant something to me. I lost hope in what I was passionate about and then I stopped caring, stopped feeling. Then my fiance gave me back her ring. I was not going to let her down. So I fought myself, I would not give up, fuck everyone who says I wasn't worth it and that I should settle for less than I was worth it. I regained my focus on my life and won back my fiance. I fought for what I deserved again, for what make me feel alive.
In the past year I was working for a great company and making more money than I needed then I got laid off. I spent the next 2 months mentoring the robotics team I have stayed a part of since high school. Our team won our first regional event and during one of the meetings I met someone who introduced me to my current employers. I started working for them and it feels like family not work, my skills were actually getting full use and didn't even care that I was making half as much as I was. Then I went to the FIRST Robotics Championships with my team and we fucking won our division! One of the top 12 teams in the world out of over 2500 active teams. Then we had a very busy summer at work and I went out of town to clean solar power plants. On the way back home for the weekend we stop for lunch and my boss lets me know that they are giving me 0.5% in the company. I get home and my wife is in a diabetic coma, I spent the next 5 days at the hospital hoping and praying she pulls through. She was not going to recover, I made the call to take her off life support. I held her in my arms as she slipped away forever. I took some time and went back to work and I continued mentoring my team. My company got bought recently and now I have more job security and a big raise. My team just won all three of its off season competitions.