>>7893869>relationships are pointless and you should avoid them at all costs; you should also ignore women entirely and just focus on yourself, focus on hobbies and improving your health, and you'll feel much betteryeah pretty much this. I've been divorced for a few years and now I'm rounding 30. Never felt better by finding god, relinquishing all my wants, minimizing my needs, etc. I feel more eligible for love than I ever have again. Chasing pussy made me feel like trash. I quit drinking and smoking. Life is so good now, it's pure contentment and living in the now.
I cheated on her and wanted to kill myself for the longest time. It's hard to live with your shame and you can't get away from it if you're honest with yourself.
My theory is, if I sustain this, love is much more likely to come my way again anyhow. But if it doesn't, that genuinely doesn't matter to me either. I'm not lying to myself about it this time. I'm in a state of equilibrium and I realize the results of my life are inconsequential. No more proving anything to myself, like money, cars, girls, drugs, revenge. I just don't give a shit anymore and I am so happy to be at home with myself in a spiritual way.
I have a funny feeling, someday I'll recognize myself in another and we will be walking the same path together rather than carrying each other along, arguing, wanting more out of our senses.
Get out and travel OP.
