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All of you guys with relationship problems, I really hope you all end up happy with someone.
>be bi, 21
>been obsessed with the same guy for like 3 years
>all thru high school we were really good friends; not close like we could share anything, but we were both pretty big nerds
>he's still the only guy i've ever found that likes vidya, sports, AND music
>when we go to college we still kinda text each other sometimes, but he had a gf for a long time that was dependent and manipulative
>i addressed it with him and he got mad as fuck at me, didn't talk to me for months
>also at college he's kind of turning into a douche
>getting into dudebro music and car culture
>i'm still in love with the person that he used to be and still believe he can be
>present day
>he's broken up with his gf and was hoeing around for a while
>friendship feels distant as fuck and he often deliberately doesn't invite me to things
>i got 2 tickets to a music festival in July and invited him instead of my best friend
>feel myself getting unattracted to him because he's so different and he's an edgelord sometimes (he goes on reddit)
>still love him most of the time though, think about him way too much, get violently anxious about the idea of his disapproval or rejection
>thinking about just straight up telling him how i feel so i can stop wasting time and just move on since he's probably (???) straight
>every fucking time i think i'm done with him he shows moments where i see that he's still the person i fell in love with
>but he fucking hates me anyway
>i spend hours thinking about him every fucking day and he doesn't give a fuck about me or really anyone else unless they're of service to him, almost in a sociopathic kinda way
>my shitty mental state because of him interferes with my grades
>wanna tell him but I don't wanna lose him as a friend, and I feel like I'd be disrespecting his sexuality and hurting his trust
>been stuck like this for over a year
>this boy is breaking my life
