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After I so successfully graduated high school ten years ago, I completely lost track of my life. I failed four universities, went through several jobs and spent almost five years addicted to alcohol to which I lost so much money, dignity, and first and foremost a girl that was meant to be "the one". All of these factors combined kept me depressed and self-loathing for years.
Last week marked my first sober year, I now have a stable job I love in the IT field, also have a new relationship going for a few months, started studying languages again and formed a band that recently started playing gigs. Currently everything is going well. Great, even.
But even though I know I should be happy for what I have and I am certainly not complaining, it feels like after all the s**t that has happened in the past I can't help but expect everything to go to hell and throw me back into the darkness I became so used to.