>>7626713>conti get kicked out an move into my buddies apartment she moves in as well. we start doing these super strong fake pills that are made with fentnyl almost everyday . things are going just fine . i go to work she chills at home she just got laid off due to covid then i come home we either hang out an watch movies or get high . during April i started having more anxiety then normal so i had my doc double my dose of prozac . found out in around may that one side effect is reduced sex dive . at first me an the girl had crazy sex every day an night an i even order lots of toys an stuff off amazon . then in may my side effects hit mixed with the heavy opiate use i start loosing interest in sex. then for about the last 2 and a half weeks of our relationship i didn't have sex or get off what so ever . that's when she left me . found out she started talking to her ex an seeing him while im at work . that day i started smoking heroin again. it had been almost 4 years since i had
last.my work sent me on a short trip to the east coast so i said fuck it went real hard an got fucked up till i left an told myself id quit there... well i ended up finding it there . trip ended an came home. staying at parents house til i find new place till i find a place fast foward a several weeks to today i just got laid off im on unemployment wich is nice but im buying 60$-120$ of herion a day im extreamly depressed . i tried going to a 5 day detox center this week . it was a non medical one it was horrible an i left early . i hopefully have my last bag i bought a bunch of suboxone to hold me over to i get into a medical detox an treatment . yet i still wanna jump off this bridge in the pic that's about 30 mins away from me
