>>7482741I just feel bad all of the time. I can barely get out of bed or bring up the willpower to do anything: the only way I'm still functioning relatively is because my parents keep encouraging me to go to school and do things, but I just don't really find enjoyment in anything anymore. I hate being in groups because I feel like I don't fit in/I think that people dislike me. At home I just mostly sit around in the kitchen drinking tea or coffee. Vidya is no fun anymore, watching shows or anime isn't fun anymore, drawing is no fun anymore, reading is no fun anymore, working out just feels like a chore. I still like playing music but I get tired of/start hating myself after 45+/- minutes of it and stop again. Most nights I'll go to bed at 8PM because I can't stand that constant empty feeling of not wanting anything for a whole evening. I'm going to see a psychologist for the first time in my life next week so I hope that It'll help me in some way.
