>>7198017>be me>be 29>be gay>did not finish Masters degree - thesis still needs to be submitted, but otherwise got a job, normal life>came out couple of years ago to my family>thought mother was going to be ok>thought she is liberal>turns out she wanted grandchildren and marriage and wedding>she says I am a disgrace>she says I lie to myself and I am gay because of my low self - esteem>never had low self - esteem but now that surfaces what she thought of me during the years ,kind of changes everything>not the fact that I am gay, the fact that she reacted>she wants the money back for the 2 years I spent at uni during MA because in the end I did not finish yet>she says I am a liar>ok I "lied" to quite a lot a of people, but it is my life and I got a job, so from 1 perspective everything seems ok ( I can also pay her back, gradually- I can also submit my thesis, it's just work-and life was so busy, I could not concentrate on it...) >from an other perspective its just her big drama>seems she always considered me as some kind of a pet or slave who is unable to lead his own life, it turned out>she always looked down upon me,as it turns out, always considered me a beta...>she gave birth to me only to window-dress and was happy only when It seemed the I will be successful and "healthy", and when I was advertiseable for the stupid relatives>all her love was basically fake-loveSounds cheesy and commonplace, but we will have to stand up at some point, and start living our lives, not theirs or anyone else's life. First thing to do is to set a goal, and ask yourself "What do I really want?". Then the rest will be all right. We can do it mate.
