>>7427748About 11 months ago I joined a gym and changed what I ate in the hopes of conquering my life-long obesity (26). Over the past year I've worked my way from 350lbs to hovering around 200. I'm still working on it, but no matter how much effort I put in, I just can't find any scrap of pride or happiness from it. Little things like walking up stairs or running without feeling I'm going to die are nice, but no matter what, I'm still disgusted with who I see in the mirror.
I'm not trying to turn into some ripped Adonis chad, I just want to be able to love myself, yet I'm always so miserable. Worse, any time I make a poor decision, like having a single doughnut when two boxes get brought into work, it turns into a spiral for that whole day where I just binge away. I need to redouble my efforts and hone my discipline back in, I just want to be able to smile when looking in the mirror.