>>7305889I mean like yea that's kinda what I was saying at the end there
>...filling my head with escapist fantasies and daydreams because I know that even if I were to somehow make these things a reality it wouldn't be enough- I'm just fundamentally out of place and no matter what I do to try to get my real life to mirror my daydreams it will always feel off- I will always feel as though I don't belong.The point I was trying to make is that I wrap my self up in these fantasies and never bother to try to improve my life because I know that now matter how great my life becomes I'll never feel like I belong, so instead I just cling to the only thing that even resembles happiness, even if it's bittersweet. It's not that I want a better life, it's that I know that even if I had a better life it wouldn't be happy, so I always end up going back to daydreaming about I place where I feel like I do belong.
