Feeling exhausted at this point of my life. I'm losing emotions and attachments that I've felt for certain things before. Only do hobbies and studies out of necessity, kinda feel like Mersault from the "Stranger" novel. Want to be lonely and without my friends, who force me to meet with them occasionally. Been meditating for a year but I'm starting to get tired of that also, although I'm not planning on stopping it. I'm honestly just tired at this point of life and can't focus on my hobbies properly, such as music listening and movie watching. Don't even bother to post on this site anymore since I'm tired, randomly post and just lurk from time to time. Was browsing /mu/ and /g/ for a long time but I feel like there might be some other boards that might interest me such as /biz/. I love this board and threads like these. My pasiveness towards living is growing from day to day, and I worry that it might make me demotivated for continuing my studies, which have kept me afloat for a very long time.
Music for the feels:
https://invidious-us.kavin.rocks/watch?v=UH8ejHICwzI