>>5724157But it helps you push away the scary part: actually having to take that first step.
>I'm not ready yet. Better keep working so I can be ready and then I'll be there.And, hey, I'm totally with that. I'm with that. I'm with that.
There's something else I need to do before I can go. I'm just not ready yet.
>>5723952This is my current wallpaper, except the version I have is cropped to not be so long. Saving in case I ever switch to a two-monitor setup or something. It used to give me intense feels, but not so much anymore. Or it still does but I guess I don't sit and stare at it anymore. Too much shit in my life to sit and reflect, maybe. It makes me yearn. Just yearn. It's why I drove 4 hours to the mountains by myself on New Year's Eve to look at the stars. And I got there and didn't see any and god that crushed me a little. There's a magical, peaceful place above the city lights and beneath the starry, starry sky, where the grass grows green and healthy and the trees stand guard to all sides and maybe there's someone there, someone like me, with a lantern and a map and a damn good reason to be there. And maybe she'll tell me why I'm there.
I didn't find it.
I don't have anything else to post, so here's the shorter version.
