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Alright, I don't know if this is the right board for this kind of stuff but I've seen some threads like this on here before, so here goes an attempt.
Basically, I've just returned to from a trip to Germany with my friends, its 1 AM here and I can't sleep because of various reasons. The trip has been a good experience, my friends and I have shared some great moment this weekend, both sober and shitfaced. Now that Sunday is turning into Monday and I should be in bed, I'm sitting here in front of my computer with this weird empty feeling inside. Im 22 years old and the thing is that I feel alone, but not the the right sense of the word. I have a girlfriend, we're living in our owned apartment, I have a lot of friends which I meet every week, I send and receive snapchats all the time, I talk to people on facebook often etc. So basically, I'm around my friends all the time and I'm thankful for even having friends. But still I don't meet anyone until I myself take the initiative, and if i don't, we don't meet. I'm a kind guy, I don't pretend to be someone else. I ask people if everything is good when its appropriate. I'm not forcing myself on anyone, making myself a burden to anyone else. No, i tread carefully. This thing didn't really hit me until this weekend. When we were all sitting around the table to second night of our trip having dinner. I'm with my friends, we're laughing, drinking, eating and have a good time. Still, I'm never adressed while everyone else is eager to get the attention of someone else, although I'm trying to take part in the conversation whenever I have something actually funny or relevant to say. Looking back, it has always been this way with me. I'm not saying anyone should feel bad for me, because I'm actually living a good life. I just think the fact is funny that I think I feel lonely, while surrounded with all the things one should ever need. All in all I dont consider it a big problem but it makes me feel somewhat bad about myself daily.
