>>5630929[cont]
We have a chess club here in college, it's pretty renowned (at least as far as I know) but I am always to lazy to go. Some people still in the high school chess club even go there sometimes but I never have the desire, especially if I'm chilling somewhere with friends. I find it so weird the have chosen this wallpaper and this story, but, I don't know if I could consider myself happy right now. Sometimes I think myself to be a little bitch because I can feel suddenly so unhappy for seemingly no reason. I feel especially shitty if I spent the whole day alone. I guess I just crave the interaction with others.
Anyways, I guess to wrap up a ramble, I picked this one because chess is sort of symbolic for me. Even though I was unhappy a lot last year, chess brought me some great times with plenty of friends, old and new. I think I might just be lonely now... the story about my old girlfriend was only really relevant for the chess and for the happy factor. I don't miss her anymore, at least not dating her, but I think I just miss having someone in general. I can hang out with my friends 24/7 nowadays and sometimes still feel like I don't have anybody to play chess with.
