OP.
Don't.
I know how you might feel right now. Life's a bitch. It's sometimes fucking disgusting and you just want to abandon it forever, but seriously, don't.
Think of it this way. Look at all of the pictures of the thread. Just look at every single goddamn detail. Capture the beauty of what you see. What if that was taken away from you? What if all this beautiful art just went away in an instant, replaced by an endless black? Really. Look at the art. How fucking terrible would it be for all of this amazing art to be stolen from your eyes?
That's what could happen to you, OP. You could lose all of this art, and everything. Your parents, your past, your great times with friends and pals, and your future. Everything. Gone in an instant.
Think of every great time you've had with others. Reflect on just how goddamn ecstatic you were with your best buds. How amazing it was to take a breath of fresh air and enjoy everything around you. Just remember those great times. Think of how glad you were.
Instead of wiping those away forever, enjoy yourself for now and forever. Even if it's just one more silly day. Try doing something for yourself. Go do something that makes you smile. Put even a tiny twinge of enjoyment on your face. Embrace that. Look at the pic related. All that is just for you.You can do anything on it, so do something fun, dammit.
Besides, you've got nothing to lose at this point, so why NOT do something hilariously fun? Might as well.
I'm telling you OP, I need you to reconsider your choice. I beg you, don't do it.