>>6290570Man I wish I believed you...
>>6290615Hear me out man... This is getting too weird how similar what you're going through is. I used to get the same reactions to physical affection as you do. To some extent I still do but i think my brain/body learned that all that does is sabotage myself out of a second date and so the most severe parts of the reaction are delayed until after a date is over. I typically start having a panic attack the second I get back to my car and shut the door, usually my foot shakes so much I couldn't start driving even if I wanted to. When it comes to ANYBODY else touching me I reel away as well, i know EXACTLY how you feel. For me at least it feels incredibly morbid to have anybody else but a romantic interest touch me at all. It feels like that character Rogue from X-men is touching my skin, it's a combination of burning, freezing, and electrocuting for me and I simply can't handle it.
I think there are reasons why i've developed such a severe and complex nervous system when it comes to touch but I'm not sure I'll ever truly know, for the most part I've conceded to the fact that I'm fucked and it will take a truly special and compassionate girl to find a way to love me not just in spite of this but because of it...
Pic is OC from Kenya in took last year, I guess you could say i felt in love with the earth, so I think this counts
