>>6416444>bad daysproves how removed you have always been from an actually suicidal mindset. i only get a glimpse some days and i haven't had more than a 6/10 day in 3 years. most days about a 3. you can't grasp what its like to come to a place where every day is a struggle with the most minor things and every time you move forward, you relapse and sometimes even regress further than before. to have that go on for so long that you don't even remember what you were like before, that this imposter has actually become you and stolen your identity. to know in the back of your mind that if you are being 100% honest and thinking logically, this well carry on for several more years, even if it starts getting better tomorrow. that even if you survive the years and come out yourself again, you will have wasted your youth and many years of your loved one's lives, all those that actually stick around, anyways. when it gets sobad that it manifests itself as physical sickness that you are never more than 36 hours removed from, that sickness then stops you from holding down traditional jobs for more than 3 months at a time, despite you outworking all your coworkers because the only wayto deal with the anxiety is to drown it with concentrating on work, even while others are rightfully taking it easy or going on a short break. that is my life for the last 3 years. i wont even pretend to know what its really like.
don't act like you can even begin to put yourself in the shoes of the mentally "ill" just because you had a bad week at work. mental illness = physical illness, there is no difference. if you hold this opinion of the mentally ill, you must apply it to those with disease and injury, if you wouln't say these things to somebody with cancer or who has been maimed/injured, you are really just being illogical and an edgy faggot.
