7 months ago, the woman i was going to marry cheated on me and subsequently left me. I was devastated and quit my job and moved about 1000 miles away. I'm in a new state now and I'm still struggling to make friends and really connect with people. my ex has slept with most of my friends from my old town. I used to be a firefighter and felt like I had a purpose in this world and now i work minimum wage in a day job. I don't care about anything anymore and im tired of fighting my constant depression. I dont even want the relationship back because I know I can't forget whats happened. I have major anxiety and feel like I can hardly breathe most of the time. I dont want another relationship or even sex, but i feel constant crushing loneliness. I just really want to end it all, but im too much of a pussy to do it.
I hope you guys are having a better night than i am.