>>7460726I thought this picture looked familiar. I took that in Oceanside, CA a while ago.
>>7460729I know how you feel dude. Been going through something similar myself. I was with this girl for almost seven years, but it ended up going sour. It was nothing she did - totally my own fault. At the time I was stressed out over school, struggling with depression, and I just didn't know how to deal with any of that properly. It ended up taking a toll on our relationship, and she left. I did everything I could to get her back, but no luck. I was totally devastated. Still am I guess. I wish forgetting about her was as easy as flipping a switch, but it's not.
Since then my depression has gotten way worse. I haven't had luck finding anyone that makes me feel the way she did - just a string of meaningless hookups. These days I find it hard to feel any emotion towards anything. I feel dead inside - a shell of my former self. I'm a year away from earning my master's degree and I'm not even excited about it. I haven't felt genuinely happy in years. I'm not excited about my future. I just don't see the point in life anymore.
No doubt I would have killed myself by now if my parents weren't still around. There's no way I could ever put them through that. Now that's really all I'm waiting for. Just going through the motions until my parents are gone and I no longer have to. Maybe things will get better before then, and I'll keep trying to improve before then, but I seriously doubt it.
