>>7920864it only gets more difficult from here
consolation: you're a grown man and you can make a better life
interact with everyone you can, on any terms you want, make friends and build relationships that you can depend on instead of the built in ones you expect.
family members will always be around, but your relationship with them will change and you can't expect the same dynamic throughout your whole life. if you haven't yet, try celebrating your dad's birthday for once and see if he returns the favor in the future. if he doesn't, just cut it out for a while.
go out and find the things you love, and the things you're good at. turn what you're good at into a career, if you can, or at least something that can help you to make better and stronger relationships with others. take what you love and turn it into a life's pursuit, give yourself goals, even if they're somewhat impractical. it doesn't mean that they'll be achieved, but never let a single skill or career define you, let the world know you have loftier goals.
don't be afraid to experiment with new things, even if they are dangerous, but keep a level head. never let one thing become a habit unless you feel like its going to contribute to your life. drugs and alcohol might take the edge off, but they won't contribute to your health. you might think that you don't have the time or money for good diet and exercise, but that's just an illusion created by society. seek out what helps you thrive.
imagine your future life to be like a man who is in a constant state of camping. the home in which you live was just a tent, and the outside world was waiting around you the whole time. that tent's about to fall in, so soon you're going to have to learn to take a hike. navigate the trails that are there, listen to the elements around you, let them guide you to where you might find that next camping ground. but, don't ever imagine things to be secure, much less concrete, your life's core goal is survival.
