>>8005951shit i didn't want to remember. but it's been 13 months since my ex abandoned me. mere hours after telling me she loved me.
we had been together for 4 years, and i knew her for 7 years. she actively blocked all contact afterwards, so i couldn't message or call her. i don't know where she is or what she's doing now.
when i looked her up online i found her, dug up some of her old posts and there she was, venting about me and getting bad advice from sympathetic simps.
during our time together, i've been decent to her. i got her gifts, listened to her rant for hours, and even worked on her projects. i refrained from giving advice when she asked, i gave advice when she asked. lost arguments so she wouldn't tear up. she'd often tell me how i saved her life, how she uses me as her emotional crutch. how afraid she was that i might walk out on her someday because of something she said in anger.
when i tried contacting her on reddit, she called the cops on me! i got an email from some official retard telling me to stop trying to contact
ms.name.
I feel used, it bothers me how easily she abandoned me after we've been together for years. i remember staying up till i was DELIRIOUS working on her shit because she needed it that day. all while hoping that she'd remember it someday.
sometimes i get angry thoughts, thinking of all the things i could do for revenge. send her nudes to her conservative mom, send printed mugs to her dad, or even start an escort service ad with her real address. but i'd rather she regrets how bad she treated me, than have her believe she did the right thing by leaving. and i'm sorry to myself for saying this, but i never actually stopped loving her.
i don't think i could ever trust anyone that way again. i'm hitting 30 next month, and i'm embracing the life without another vagina. it's better to be alone that to be disappointed.
OP. I know this is nothing compared to your situation. I feel for you man.
