>>3837036Wasn't quite sex, but it had been a romantic relationship. It was along the lines of that sort of thing, though I had refused to show my body to him because I was scared, self-conscious, and because of the very illegal age difference. We ended up spending many nights together just talking regardless.
>>3837738As much as I appreciate the analysis, I don't know how true it is. On one hand, I do want connection, but I know I will end up hurting others until I can fix myself. After the relationship with the anon I talked about before, I ended up getting together with another and the same cycle repeated. Since then I've made a point to avoid getting romantically invested in others as much as possible.
In a way, that does fit what you said, though I believe my reasoning was different. There were a myriad of reasons that I ended up getting into another relationship, and though some of them may have been that longing to fill the hole, I don't think they were the majority.
I hate the original anon in some ways, but I do not want to. Though I was the younger in the relationship, in some ways I felt like I was taking advantage of him. He should have known better than to pursue anything, but I should not have allowed or encouraged it either.
Thank you for taking the time to respond and for the advice. I wish you the best.
>>3837149Thank you for the reminder, though I did download the original as well - it was something like 20.5mb though so I couldn't attach it.
